World Open, U 2200 round 4
1.e4 c5 2.Nf3 Nc6 3.d4 cxd4 4.Nxd4 Nf6 5.Nc3 e5
Oh my goodness, a Sveshnikov. I have a very strange love/hate relationship with this opening. I know some theory but I'm definitely not prepared to play the typical endgames. I don't understand what's going on in any profound way. It's kind of surreally anti-positional, so when I win, it's usually because my idea was so weird that my opponent couldn't find it. I know long term I should switch and play something strategic and logical like the Accelerated Dragon. But sometimes it's really a lot of fun, and perhaps I have a sentimental attachment to it also...6.Ndb5 d6 7.Bg5 a6 8.Na3 b5 9.Bxf6 gxf6 10.Nd5 f5 11.Bd3 Be6 12.Qh5 Ok, so I haven't looked at this line in .. umm.. not since 2006 I think, but my memory is that it didn't look so hard to play for black.
12...Rg8 13.g3 Rg6
I think the rook usually goes to g5 or g4, but Rg6 is an interesting square too.. There are some ideas of trapping the queen, for example 14. Qxh7? Rh6 15. Qg8 followed by ...Nd4 and ...f614.c3 b4 [14...fxe4 This doesn't work quite yet: 15.Bxe4 Bg4 16.Qh4 Qxh4 17.gxh4 Rh6? 18.Nf6+; 14...f4 15.gxf4 Bg4 16.Qxh7 Rh6 17.Qg8 Rg6 18.Qh8 Rh6=]
15.Nc4 [15.cxb4 Nd4]
15...Rc8 I was pretty happy with my position here. Ncb6 is nothing-- I'll just play Rb8 and he has to go back, so I gain a tempo.
16.Rd1
And now I feel triumphant, since my opening strategy has worked and now I can win his queen. Of course Rybka calls this -.68, but for me at that moment, I was wildly happy.16...fxe4 17.Bxe4 Bg4 18.Bxg6 Bxh5 19.Bxh5 bxc3
Why not, right? He has to take back. But at this point I start to become afraid. Last summer I had three positions where I was up a queen for a rook and piece, and I lost all of them horribly. I remember the last one especially-- it was at the Continental Open on Sunday morning, I was playing some tiny kid who was not really all that good, After the game I completely lost it. I cried all through lunch, sobbing into the calamari and two glasses of wine. Oh my god, how humiliating that was.
20.bxc3
So how am I going to organize myself? I'm realizing that this is nto going to be easy at all-- my bishop is bad, my knight isn't on a good square, my king is unsafe, and while white's kingside rook is undeveloped, all the rest of his pieces look great.
20...Nd4
So I talk myself into this move, envisioning the lines 21. cxd4 Rxc4 22. dxe5 Re4+ (super) or 21. Ncb6 Rxc3 22. Nxc3 Qxb6 (for an exchange I have a pawn, a beautiful square for my knight, plus I'm blocking the d file, which makes his rook not so good and my d6 pawn not so bad. Then as soon as I put my knight down, I realize that I didn't look at Ndb6 at all. Desparation fillls me. Luckily he doesn't play it. Afterwards, Rybka shows a funny refutation: 21. Ndb6 Nc2+ 22. Kd2 Na3! 21.Nce3 [21.cxd4 Rxc4 22.dxe5 Re4+; 21.Ncb6 Rxc3 22.Nxc3 Qxb6; 21.Ndb6 Nc2+ 22.Kd2 Na3 23.Nxc8 Nxc4+ 24.Ke2 Qxc8]
21...Nb5 22.0–0
So here I have a long think. Of course, my initial intention was to take on c3, but then I decide that I really don't want to exchange a pair of knights or a pair of rooks, (on the general theory that when you have one of something and your opponent has two, you shouldn't exchange.) So then I'm thinking, ok, but what else to do? I'd like to play Bg7, but I might need the bishop where it is to defend d6. And I start looking at Qg5. My thinking goes like this: 22... Qg5 23. Bf3/e2 f5. Then I'm interested in either f4 (to start an attack) or e4 (vacating e5 for my bishop, opening the 5th rank for my rook/queen, blocking the long diagonal for his bishop, maybe someday preparing ...e3)
22...Qg5?? Of course as soon as I make the move I realize I'm not threatening to take on h5 because of Nf6. I spend 10 minutes screaming at myself inside my head. Then I look back at the position and realize he's going to play f4 and it's very very strong.
23.f4! exf4 24.Rxf4 Bg7?? What's so awful, yet hilarious about this move is that he can now trap my queen, in almost exactly the same way I trapped his, [24...Nxc3! 25.Nxc3 Qxh5] 25.Bxf7+ [25.Rf5 Qh6 26.Bxf7+ Kd8 27.Rh5]
25...Kd8
26.c4?? Now I felt angry that I was losing to someone who didn't see things. [26.Rf5 Qh6 27.Rh5]
26...Nc3 27.Nxc3 Bxc3 28.Rxd6+ Kc7 29.Rd5 OK, so I have a choice of three squares: e7, g7 and h6. 29... Qe7 looked like it lost something to 30. Rd3, which threatens both my bishop and Nd5. 29... Qg7 looked bad to me after 30. Be6, which threatens both Rf7 and Rd7. I couldn't see an immediate win after 29...Qh6, and even though it looks pretty lame, I can dream about the variation 29... Qh6 30. Rh5 Qb6 31. Rxh7 Qb1+ 32. K moves Qxh7.
29...Qh6 30.Rh5
It's happening!! I try to play 30...Qb6 as casually as possible.
30...Qb6 31.c5 Qb1+ 32.Rf1 Qd3 33.Nd5+ Kb8 There's a few choices for my king, but I want a dark square and not d8.
34.Nf4
34...Bd4+ [34...Qe4 35.h3 Bd4+ 36.Kh2 Qc2+ 37.Kh1 Rxc5 38.Rxc5 Bxc5 39.Bb3 Qd2]
35.Kg2 Qc2+ 36.Kh3 Rxc5 37.Rxc5 Bxc5 38.Bb3 Qf5+ 39.Kg2 Qe4+ 40.Kh3 Qf5+
And I agreed to a draw here, which is pretty stupid. It seems like I just totally lose my fighting spirit after four hours. I torture myself endlessly with accusatory mind chatter "youregoingtoloseyouregoingtoloseyousucksomuchihateyou." I gotta figure out how to become less neurotic. Ok, I admit that having no clue how or where to start in thinking about this position made things much worse, and also that if I knew more about endgames I would understand that I am the one trying to win here, and that I DON'T NEED TO FREAK OUT. I can push my a pawn, and then try to win his, somehow, cleverly: [40...Bd6 41.Rf2 a5 42.Bc2 Qd4 43.Rf3 a4 44.Bf5 (44.Rf1 Qc4 45.Rf2 Bxf4 46.gxf4 Qxa2) 44...Qb2 45.Be6] ½–½
You need to work on separating your emotions from your chess. You obviously recognize that, but seem unsure how to go about it. There is little concrete advice I can offer, but here is a broad tip:
ReplyDeleteStart by studying and analyzing very concrete chessboard emotions that you can recognize have given you trouble on multiple occasions - much the same way you would identify, analyze and strive to correct specific weaknesses in your play.
For instance, do you regularly get frustrated and depressed when you have bad positions, to the point you don't feel like putting out the effort needed to defend them?
Or, do you get caught up in a "blame game" against yourself, whenever you blunder (I can see from your latest post that the answer to that one is "Yes!")
Once you've identified a particular situation and/or emotion that regularly stymies you, you can monitor your own state of mind so as to maintain a sort of "automated alert" for just that situation or emotion. If you're conscious of the emotion, and of the need to lean against it whenever it appears, you'll find the seemingly intractable emotion will gradually lose its power over you. After all, isn't that akin to what Freud said (emotional issues draw virtually all their power from operating below the conscious level)?
You can set that "automated aleret" for dangerous chessboard emotions, by keeping up a conscious dialogue with yourself while playing -
"What am I feeling? Am I nervous? Stay calm. I'm beating a guy rated 400 points higher than me, but he's no genius. Just play my game the same as I would if he were rated 2000."
"I just blundered. I feel like I suck - but I already know that feeling I must suck after blundering has caused me to do still further damage to my game, on past occasions. So I'm not going to yield to it this time. I'm going to start fresh with the position I have, and do everything I can to turn things around. Now my opponent thinks I suck, so HE'LL probably get overconfident and relax..." etc.
For some concrete illustrations, see my December 2005 Chess Life article, "The Sense of Danger, Part II: When Emotions Attack."
This is not to say that emotions can, or should, be completely separated from anyone's chess play. GM Jonathan Rowson makes some profound observations along these lines (i.e., about getting your emotions to work FOR you, rather than just stopping them from working AGAINST you) in his exccellent (but perhaps overly erudite) "The Seven Deadly Chess Sins."
One other thing: In your final position against Gary Point, I don't see why you think Black should win. A draw looks like an appropriate result to me (although there's certainly enough play left to justify continuing - not to mention that you were a little higher rated).
Hi Elizabeth,
ReplyDeleteIt was nice to see you in Philly. Sorry we didn't have more time to chat. Check your spam folder for some photos that I sent you earlier, including one of you and Angelica.
RC
One of the best games ever with this line was Brodsky-Kramnik, 1991.
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Lately, I've preferred 12...Bg7 on the Black side of this.
"someone who doesn't see things." Thanks a lot, you fucking asshole.
ReplyDelete- Gary Point